I’ve probably been burntout for a while. Haven’t had a vacation in a long time, haven’t been making the progress I want to be etc
At the same time chalking it all up to “burnout” seems dishonest. I’ve not been doing a good job —- I lack general discipline, have been on and off abusing drugs, been too alone and existential.
I don’t think an abrupt break is going to fix these things so I stay put, trying to fix underlying issues or make enough progress to be actually mindless on a vacation someday.
FWIW, I felt the same, and taking a few months off helped me tremendously. Not that I'm fully healed or anything, but it gave me some new perspectives, and it feels like I've regained some of my mental health.
At the same time chalking it all up to “burnout” seems dishonest. I’ve not been doing a good job —- I lack general discipline, have been on and off abusing drugs, been too alone and existential.
I don’t think an abrupt break is going to fix these things so I stay put, trying to fix underlying issues or make enough progress to be actually mindless on a vacation someday.