doing mostly 'cog in a machine' type of work in order to make enough money to be safe and have some extra for fun and future planning is a core part of nearly every human life on the planet and most people get on fine with it, without wanting to kill themselves.
in fact for most people the situation is significantly worse, OP is in a privileged position in a relatively well paid industry with relatively non-menial work and is still complaining. there is no other way around it, there is something wrong with OP.
and before all of this corporate stuff developed, people were mostly farming all day which is hardly an improvement.
depression need not enter the picture. imo being a privileged baby having way too high expectations of what life is supposed to give you is all explanation necessary in this case. imo OP needs to stop being a baby and grow up. this might be caused by reading too much about how awesome other people have it and being jealous / not able to cope that OP is not in the same situation, but whatever the cause, the effect is obvious.
This is generally called an existential crisis.[1] Being rich and privileged can actually cause this to happen. If you are poor you really don't have the time and energy to worry about the meaning of life because you are focused on not being homeless, or hungry, or unsafe, or alone.
You sound angry and defensive about your own solution to the problem. It’s not obvious how that is a more healthy response than to be depressed about it.
Cows and chickens rarely kill themselves even in industrial farms, that doesn't mean they have a good life.
>imo being a privileged baby having way too high expectations of what life is supposed to give you is all explanation necessary in this case. imo OP needs to stop being a baby and grow up.
I have a ton of debts and I've spent about 90% of my life living in poverty, I've spent my first year of college sleeping on the floor of a storage room with no shower or toilet.
Does that look like privilege to you?
Maybe you're too simple minded to realize that just because you have it a bit better than some people doesn't mean you're in a good situation.
What's the point of being safe if most of your life is spent making some rich guy's life better? The fun I got after work was never nearly enough to outweigh the stress and the waste of time at work.
According to your way of thinking a fed homeless man should be happy because he is fed.
A hungry homeless should be happy because he is not handicapped.
A blind homeless starving man should be happy because he's not also deaf and an amputee.
Where does it stop exactly? At death? Everyone who did not yet die of torture should be happy, otherwise it just mean they're a privileged baby who is expecting too much of life?
in fact for most people the situation is significantly worse, OP is in a privileged position in a relatively well paid industry with relatively non-menial work and is still complaining. there is no other way around it, there is something wrong with OP.
and before all of this corporate stuff developed, people were mostly farming all day which is hardly an improvement.
depression need not enter the picture. imo being a privileged baby having way too high expectations of what life is supposed to give you is all explanation necessary in this case. imo OP needs to stop being a baby and grow up. this might be caused by reading too much about how awesome other people have it and being jealous / not able to cope that OP is not in the same situation, but whatever the cause, the effect is obvious.