Maybe have a look at https://strapi.io/ and https://directus.io/. They are really easy to setup so yo can spend an afternoon trying out both and see if you like them.

It seemed apparent to me when I did that Strapi had contracted development of what they had and we’re not very keen on fixing it themselves.

Basic 1st project setup things didn’t work, etc.

"A jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one."

Yeah, but nobody knows the entire quote. :)

Do not listen to anonymous people online but talk to a professional like a coach or psychologist.