Hah! But then you get a comment thread like this[1] from people breaking down the etymology of words and why you, as a non-native speaker, should stick to English.
You are lucky because you really like something and know that you like it. So just enjoy it and have time for yourself and your family. I hope I know what I really like to spend my time for it without regretting like you.
Sometimes you may feel sad, but don't cry because you're lonely. We need that loneliness to grow up.